Normally, I don't really talk about my own personal problem, but I think you guys who follow me should know a little something about me.
Currently, I have been diagnosed with Depression. But if you were to ask me how long I've been Depressed, I couldn't give you an exact point in time as it goes far back before my mother's death due to illness. What was happening at that time was not only my mother's illness, but a lot of family and court issues (I’m not going to go into detail for mainly private reasons and the fact I was very young and had no idea what was going on in court). These issues both lead to my father's and my own Depression. My father, thankfully, had his taken care of, while I on the other had kept it bottled up inside, hoping it'd go away. This proved to be a very bad idea as it is now affected my everyday life. It’s made me become very cynical, bitter, and sad person. I know it doesn't seem like I'm that way, as I try to be a very nice person to those around me, but trust me, when you really get to know me, I am a very negative person.
This has also affected my hobbies and life goals. I am a cartoonist, as well as amateur seamstress and jewelry maker. These things used to keep me occupied in order to ignore the problem lucking inside me. This didn’t really work, as it began to drain my willingness to the point where I couldn’t bring myself to do my work. This is one for the main reasons I took request. It gave me something to do. If I couldn’t lift myself up with my work, maybe I could bring someone else up. It always made me feel a little better knowing I could make someone happy with what I could do.
Sadly, my Depression has gotten in my way nowadays that it’s interfering with even that. So with no other options, I told my father, and now getting the help I’ve needed for some time. Currently, I’ve been given an anti-depressant (it’s a very low dosage, which I’m very glad for…. I’m not a huge fan of meds), and may go in for consoling.
I just felt you all should know about this. And for those who know me personally…. I’m sorry I never told you. I just didn’t want you all to worry about me. Hopefully, with the help I’m going to get, I’ll be able to get back to my work and bring you all more and better pieces of, well, whatever I make. It will take some time, but don’t worry too much. I’ll be back, and with more determination to finish the projects I’ve been talking about since forever.